Ashleey'Nicole x3

When we first met? I NEVER thought i’d like you as much as I did. You got me back together with my ex. You did ANYTHING to make sure I was happy. When my ex dumped me? You announced to EVERYONE on Facebook, that he was stupid for it. You dedicated the song Grenade to me. It didn’t mean much to me then. But now guess what?! Everytime I hear it, I feel like breaking down in to tears. On May 21, 2011, we were supposedly suppose to die at 6. You texted me the CUTEST thing ANYONE HAS EVER TOLD ME. You said “I wanna be with you at 6.” and when I asked why? You said “Because if we do die, I wanna die with you.” What did I do when you got to my Bestfriends house that day!? I paid NO attention to you. Little did I know, that was the end of US. After that? You and my “Bestfriend” dated. I HATED HER AFTER THAT. She was dead to me. But you broke up with her because it was causing her and I to fight. But until this day, I can’t even fully trust her. Then, you decided to date my sister. And little after that? YOU DECIDED TO GO FOR MY FRIEND? It’s like you’re trying to hurt me or something? But You and I? Have always remained friends. I used to always deny to Everyone and to Myself, that I liked you. And when you were gone, I REALIZED that you’re all I ever wanted. AND STILL TO THIS DAY? I want you. People don’t understand the love I have towards you. They think i’m stupid for even SAYING that I Love You. But they don’t know how I feel, and they never will. You mean absolutely the World to me. I wish things were different. I wish we were how we used to be. But its my fault ; and I hate myself more each and every day for fucking you over. But I really do love you. And that will NEVER Change.